Boys, can I get your help/advice? Please?

So I'm 16 and a boy and bi but lean more towards boys. Alot of girls are Tryna get with me but as and i appreciate that but as of now I wana work on finding a boy to experiment and have fun with. I want a cute boy with a nice butt so I can play ;) is it ok that I dream and fantasize of screwing a guy and f**king him? I'm not out about bein bi cause I'm not ready to be and since I'm a bit insecure I have a bad attitude to everyone pretty much thinkin they'll hurt me and I feel my attitude scares boys away who like me, what do in do? I just wana an attractive boy like myself so I can have fun and feel him up