I have major guy trouble please help me?

When I was in the 4th grade I fell in love with my friend anthony. (He was in the 6th grade) my sister told him I likes him a lot and he asked me(while he asked me his cheeks were really red nd he was blushing and really smiling) and I said no because I was very scared and insecure. I'm 14 going to the 9th grade and I still think about him and I want to be with him so bad. We lost touch, but I know where he works and I'm thinking about going there and talk to him... I really don't kno what to do. I am still inlove with him he was my first actual crush.. And I want him... I already know so much about him and I know his family and they love me.. And please don't anyone tell me I'm too young to be thinking about love and I should be thinking about school.. I am in love with him and I want to be in a relationship with him. Please any ideas from anyone